Do you remember that old Loony Tunes (I know, I thought it was Toons, too.) episode where the big dumb abominable snow-man gets a hold of Daffy and loves him so much that he ends up mauling him half to death?
I feel that way about my blog sometimes. It’s a funny thing. I want it to succeed so much, but I don’t really know how. I want to say all the right things, but my reluctance to post anything I’m not 100% thrilled with usually keeps me from posting anything, in the fear that it isn’t good enough. A bunch of lousy posts will drive away an audience, but a lack of content will, too. Catch-22, anyone?
First off, I have define “succeed.” It’s therapeutic and all to have an outlet for your feelings, and to share tips/tricks that you’ve learned with others, but in the end, it needs to be sustainable. In a perfect world, I will find out how to get my site to generate enough cash to allow me to quit my weekend job. This would allow me the free time (what’s that?) to get to be the Dad I want to be. Another catch-22. I work two jobs and try to write a daddy-blog, which takes time away from my family, in the hopes that I can use one to eliminate the other, so that I can be the Dad my kids need. Does that make any sense to anyone?
“Quit writing the blog and spend that time with the kids” is the first rational thought that comes to mind. It’s a good thought, but it reminds me of the definition of insanity: doing the same thing over and over again, hoping to get different results. I’ve been working two jobs, nearly 7 days/week, for a long time now, and I’m no better off than where I started. True, my bills are paid, and I can afford a few creature comforts, but we’re not sitting back, letting the good times roll.
I should say that I have no intention of getting rich online. I’d just like to get my bills paid, have a few creature comforts, and get a couple of days off/week, instead of a couple of days off/month. Too much to ask?
So, I find that I’ve been writing less in part because my current theme lends itself to big, formal posts with featured images and titles, and stuff like that. I don’t really want this to be like that anymore. I want something more “diary-ish,” but still with room for big fancy posts. So, I’ve switched to a notebook theme. We’ll try it for a while, and go from there. I know – crisis of identity. Probably. Don’t judge.
Let me know what you think of the new look in the comments below.