When I posted my first post in July of 2013, the first of the 415 I’ve published since, I had no idea what I was doing. Actually, most days I wonder if I’ve learned anything in the last four years.
I’ve had an on and off relationship with this site. Every time it starts to feel self-aggrandizing, I back off. I don’t like the attention. I have an especially hard time when people tell Beth and I what good parents we are. I don’t see us doing anything different than any other household, it’s just that we share our stories in a public way.
And I think that’s the secret. Sharing the good AND the bad. Sharing our thought processes; our peaks and our valleys. I think it speaks to the part of us all that hates looking at Facebook for the highlight reels people choose to share. It’s nice to see that we all make mistakes. We all worry about the same basic things.
I don’t think this site would resonate with people if I cherry-picked the best parts of raising kids, being parents, and navigating Autism Spectrum Disorder.
I didn’t understand how much I needed this outlet until this past couple of weeks when so many people (842 views) reacted and responded to Jake winning a spot on the junior varsity basketball team. It was so great to share that victory with the public at large. It was a great feeling.
It was just as great a feeling, though in a completely converse way, to share the last week of Annie’s life (726 views over 3 posts). Beth said just this morning that she’d never thought to reach out to someone when their dog dies, but that it felt really nice that people were doing that for her. One hundred and fifty Facebook comments is overwhelming.
I’m rambling. I do that.
I guess the point is: thank you for reading. Thank you especially for the comments, and the support. I promise to keep writing honestly if you’ll keep reading. Heck, I’ll keep writing even if nobody reads. But it’s nice to know I’m not screaming into the void.
Thanks for that.